So yesterday I was agonizing after being rejected during a phone interview for one job. Then I found myself frantically trying to contact another person for an update on one of the jobs I originally thought I was a shoe in for.
I tried to call again and again, but got no return phone calls. Which is a bad sign. It’s a sign that they are trying to avoid you because they are in the midst of making a decision that does not involve you in their picture.
And so rather promptly and abruptly I got a phone call letting me know they don’t want me. They described there were many strong candidates, but in the end someone else had many years of experience in a computer system I never used before. It certainly gave me a feeling that I may not have even been number two in consideration. In their “optimistic” voice they said they were sure I’d find another job, but a voice was crying inside of me that “NO NO! I really don’t think I have another job. THIS WAS IT!! NO”
I must face the even more real possibility that I’m going to be unemployed.
I’m devastated once again.
And my boss started asking me to do more tasks, and I’m in a daze. What? I see my replacement happy and eager to get up to speed and take over my job. There were a few times I was fighting back tears.